Someday I want to hang out shingles by myself.
People can come in and out as they want.
I can offer much help to the community.

I have much comfort when I get to hear music, particularly classical music.

Helps me keep a vigilant eye on it

I made another call to Dr. Sam's office and asked if I can get a better deal on payment. She told me the way to get by the fee and I'll try out.

Doctor's Appointment

I finally started to make phone calls.
I spoke to one operator who was asking me more detailed questions about my father's symtom, first I was offended that she wants to solicit too much information out of me, and then when she said she just want to place more suitable doctor for my dad, I felt a little more comfortable. I still felt agitated because she was anal about my answering. All in all, it turns out that she appointed some doctor to my dad on 17th of this month. His name is Dr. Bruce Seiedman. Upon assuring this, I've got another call from the secretary of Dr. Asnis, who was recommended by my mom's nurse friend. Since he was booked up till November, she said he is recommeding Dr. Sam Kenan, who is an Orthopedic surgeon and also Oncologist. His profile looks more proficient thant any one else. Only thing that bothers me is that she said now Dr. Sam is out of practice. I hope is not that rusty. I also have to figure out how to cope with copayment of $315 if my dad's insurance doens't cover it. We'll see.

Dream Girl

I had a dream last night, and it was so vivide that I almost felt liking doing something about it.

She was beautiful girl and had a boyfriend. Her best friend wasn't too bad and left me no option other than taking her friend. But I still longed for her and was content even when I saw her smile and hear her laugher. I was happy and liked her a lot. I told her that it's unethical to take her from her bou so I'd rather wait for you and we will see how we're going to do from there.

I didn't ruin her by possessing her. I was so happy to see her by my side, her smile, her laugher, her face.




어느 깊은 가을밤, 잠에서 깨어난 제자가 울고 있었다. 그 모습을 본 스승이 기이하게 여겨 제자에게 물었다.
“왜 우느냐?”
“꿈을 꾸었습니다.”
“무서운 꿈을 꾸었느냐?”
“아닙니다.”
“그럼 슬픈 꿈을 꾸었느냐?”
“아닙니다.”
“그럼 어떤 꿈을 꾸었느냐?”
“달콤한 꿈을 꾸었습니다.”
스승은 기이하여 다시 물었다
“그런데 어이하여 눈물을 흘리느냐?”
그러자 제자가 답했다.
“그 꿈은 이루어질 수 없는 꿈이었기 때문입니다.”

Atonement

Atonement

Over the weekend, the movie, Atonement, has mesmerized my mind and soul with a slight scent of late spring, and thus I felt indebted to write a review.

Throughout the movie, the scenes were beautifully crafted by Joe Wright, even the story line can be a bit cliché. You can figure it out after watching its commercial. The movie was originally written as a novel in 2001 by British writer, Ian McEwan and was featuring James McAvoy as Robbie and Keira Knightley as Cecilia.


Synopsis

It’s about a little girl, Briony, who once created a lie just like her fictions without knowing that it will ruin the lives and the love of her two most beloved ones. Later she regretfully attempts to undo and atone for what she has done wrong in the past through her novel but by then it’s too late and become rather self-serving. The movie depicts the conflict between Briony’s secretive but reckless crush and her sister, Cecilia’s conservative but sacrificing love toward Robbie.

At the very first peek, the movie looks a lot like Pearl Harbor or the likes of the other war movies, boosting up the patriotism justifying the war and the subsequent tragedy story.
But, in this movie, the background is rather England, and it exploited the war scene no more than what it has to: describing desperate situation for both lovers how much pain they had to carry on for one ridiculous deceit.

Dwelling in a beautiful mansion, Briony is typewriting aloud and swiftly to finish the play for her brother, Leon who is soon to visit. He is bringing his friend along, a chocolate millionaire, (don’t recall his movie name) who sells his chocolate candy bar to the Britain Army on the boarder.
Upon arrival of the very successful young businessman, Leon and his family want Cecilia to get hooked up but Cecilia rather wants to use him as a decoy to stir Robbie’s mind, the son of the housekeeper. Robbie, the housekeeper’s son, and Cecilia went to Cambridge together, both supported by “the old man”, the owner of the house and the father of Cecilia, and there they started liking each other although it was never revealed: the love able to overcome the difference statuses, though it usually goes vice versa.



Before the dinner with Leon and his guest, Robbie types a letter to apologize about an incident occurred around the pool earlier that he behaved a little strange to Cecilia.
After trashing a couple of versions, he happens to draft out a provocative version but it was rather playful to him as long as he keeps it to himself. No one knew it will ruin his promising life; he was all set to go to Oxford for his medical degree. After misplacing the lewd letter into his pocket, the bigger mistake was made when he thought Briony can deliver the letter to her sister, not knowing that she has been having a crush on him. She opens and reads the letter and finds it anatomically vulgar and explicitly seductive. That leads her to mistake Robbie for a pervert. She become more misconstruing after finding both Robbie and her sister, Cecilia, making love at the dark library after awhile. And her madness and jealous finally eats her up.



After a while, when the dinner gets interrupted by the sudden news of the missing twins, the entire family is all set out to find those two little brats, and there Briony comes across Lola, her cousin, being raped by an unknown attacker (turned out to be a chocolate millionaire), Lola, not knowing his face, acquiesces to Briony’s fictional imagination that the culprit is Robbie.
As a result of Briony’s accusation Robbie of a rapist, the innocent Robbie had to go to war after spending 3 years in prison to avoid the rest of the term. Cecilia joined the war nursery to share the burden with Robbie. Even their fate couldn’t stop their perpetual love. Following her sister’s footstep, Briony also gave up her Cambridge education and joined the nursery as a trainee. Briony coincides with Robbie when she visited her sister abruptly, and there she promised to write a letter to a judge in an effort to exonerate Robbie.

She only found out that it’s too late since Robbie has passed away during the war in France, a few hours before the evacuation and her sister, Cecilia, also has drowned to death at the bombing of the French subway by Nazi.



















Robbie’s beautiful note to Cecilia during the war

Dearest Cecilia,

The story can resume.
The one I had been planning on that evening walk.
I can become again the man who once crossed the surrey park at dusk, in my best suit, swaggering on the promise of life: the man who, with the clarity of passion, made love to you in the library.
The story can resume.
I will return, find you, love you, marry you and live without shame.


Music
Typing noise, resounding through the old mansion, rhythmically stimulates the nerves as the little playwright, Briony, runs down to her mom to show her play. The dark and sappy classical music seems adequately matched to the tone of the movie. Amid the album, my favorite was Clair de Lune by Debussy.
When the sun light fills the Cecilia’s room visually, this music fills the audience with late spring-like laziness and comfort.

The entire soundtrack is available online at
http://www.imeem.com/kpmeem/playlist/dk9y5GAl/atonement_soundtrack_music_playlist/

Also the guitar version of Debussy is available at
http://www.last.fm/music/Claude+Debussy/_/Clair+de+Lune


Wikipedia link of the actual novel:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atonement_(novel)

외로움

삶이 외로운건 이 세상에 혼자 태어나서, 혼자 살다가, 혼자 죽기 때문이다.

삶이 그다지 외롭지 않은건 이 세상에 부모님의 사랑으로 태어나, 친구들과 함께 어울려 살다가, 자식을 남기고 죽기 때문이다.

The first commandment

"Love your God with all your heart and life: Matthew 22:37"

As Fr.Ahn said last Sunday as part of his Homily, that's what Jews pray every morning to worship God.

I'm not sure if this makes them the top 1% of the entire brains in the world even though they are only 2% of the entire population.

Again, it has all three essential factors to improve,
IQ, EQ and PQ, and when you truly pray to God, the first thing you do is to reflect on yourself.
Therefore you are practicing those three fundamentals of improvement everyday to get where you want to be wherever that could be.

St. Joseph

Throughout his life, St. Joseph showed us a perfect example of active consecration.
Though both having a figure of father in bibical history, unlike Abramham, St. Joshep didn't obtain any promise from God such as receiving multiplied descendents as many as the satrs of the heaven and the sand that is on the shore.
He'd obeyed to God and sacrified himself for Him only because of the message of angel from his dream.

We all have hopes and dreams from God since Jesus sacrified himself for the sake of all of us. Jesus told us that as long as we love God and love each other, we will ultimately encounter into the kingdom of God and live eternal life with Him.
But St. Joshep didn't know all these and he had to protect Jesus as an adoptive father, not being protected by Him like us.

Therefore, not only he is the father of Jesus, but also a father of all of us.

Let's pray to God through him, as brother Andre did when we have a difficulty loving and obeying God.